Category: pain

Windows 11 is a spy program.

Version 24H2, update is blocking programs. I updated to 23H2 in November in 2023… and I don’t like the copilot thing not being abled to be uninstalled… another spying widget, it’s probably what the widgets feed data to. Here’s what’s new in 24H2 upgrade. I’m thinking I’m going to move to Linux, I know the …

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Boggles, Boggles, & More Boggles

The definition of Boggle “To do anything awkwardly, or unskillfully.” Is one definition at Wordnik, but there are many more definitions. I woke this morning, and felt boggled in my mind, like I was swimming in a cesspool, and not a relaxing pool with fresh water. It was then, I went to my email, and …

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Coerced Journalism vs Free Press.

I Sat Through Hours of Highlights On CSPAN Hearings That Deal With Free Press or Fee Press Doing the Blog writing, I’ve been searching the truth in mainstream media, and finding nothing but propaganda, and manipulating the minds of the people. I’m all for the truth, but the propaganda is my enemy… it’s a deceptive …

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Cyber-warfare- A New Battlefield

Well, not so new, but more hackers make up the armed forces. UPDATE – Shodan now has one time fee for joining, and a host of monthly fee plans… I was shocked, when I returned there… it had a paywall. It was normal first, but then the paywall came up, and I found a one …

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PCs & Me.

The New Birth of Me & PCs Collide. I was extremely depressed before my breaking my back, bordering on suicidal, where I tried to OD on PCP, and woke up blind, and told my Colonel commanding officer to “Fuck Off” through a closed door, cause he was knocking on my door to inspect my dorm …

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Israel Kills Foreign Aid Workers.

7 Aid workers were killed, in 3 separate IDF air strikes. I guess they struck them in one vehicle, and they went to another vehicle, then another air strike, which made them move to another vehicle where they all died, with the last air strike. It left a hole in the roof, where the World …

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Israel is a Madman.

Creating More Ruins, And what Lies under the Ruins, Still NEEDS to be Determined. I saw this after I posted on FB this song by Mother Mother – It’s Alright, and it was a disappointment for me, and the backing of the Israelis, and their destruction of Gaza, and our complicitness in it. Now they …

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Cody Jinks – I Cast No Stones.

I Am Not Your Judge. It’s like I wrote this song… cause it’s the way I feel too. There is always someone on their soapbox yelling for a cause, which I do sometimes too. It’s usually when I’m forced to, by some ethical questioning, and I have to have an answer for it. I can …

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Taxing us Into Perpetual Debt Prisons?

Why do we spend us into debt on pork barrel spending? The General Good, not the specific good, of small groups, and not the discrimination of small groups, but guarding us from going into debt with senseless earmarks for pork barrel projects. General Good of the nation, and all of the people will benefit, not …

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Akai Pro Studio mk2, is giving me headaches.

I need to Vent from The Anger and Judgment, That I feel From My Myself or Akai. Shoddiness is a new word I learned from watching the tutorial videos, and I’ve seen the shoddiness up close and in my face from Akai Pro… Akai is a big company, and it has many other companies it …

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MPC Studio makes you feel stupid,

And I’m already stupid, & I don’t need to be reminded of it. I got this yesterday, and it seems to be loaded with downloads, and it always says no MPC is plugged in, but I have the MPC plugged in, and I need to plug it in so the firmware could be updated, but …

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It seems like last week was 32,000+ dead in Gaza.

The Deaths, make Orphans, without Parents to guide them. A Rafah invasion will only cause more deaths, and you’re no closer to victory, than the moment you thought about it… you went away from the battlefield of thought and contemplation, to seek victory in what you see outside of yourself. And more children will die …

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1,977 Acres of the Illegal Settler’s Land,

Is Now the State of Israel Land. I guess it being illegal by international law, since you’re chosen by God, it doesn’t apply to you… or the other zionists in that Ego trap. I guess we should be thankful for God, for having mercy on your distorted Judaism, that you hijacked with zionist dreams and …

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World Party – Is it Like Today

RIP – Karl Wallinger March 10th, 2024 The Frontman for World Party – (Karl Wallinger) may rest in peace. I first saw him on Youtube, and sometime after the World Party was sort of famous, so I’m guessing it was 2014-16, but my guesses is always wrong. I was just getting into them… Ship of …

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Pink Floyd – Another Brick in the Wall.

This was a good song in 1979 when it came out. But over the last 45 years, it has taken on a new meaning in my life… it’s part of the break up of Pink Floyd, and they went their separate ways, being sprayed with Graffiti into colorful little Bricks… but they are bricks of …

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H.P. Lovecraft – At the Mountains of Madness

An Audiobook from H.P. Lovecraft By H.P. Lovecraft is a horror story, or thriller movie, still have work to do on it. I looked for an audiobook that was one long one video, instead of a lot of separate chapters videos, I have problem playing separate chapters, they stop on youtube. I need to change …

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Fascia vs Fascism.

The body uses Fascia to hold your body together, Much like Fascism holds the societal body together. I‘m deep, and I’m depressed, but that’s my low point of the wave, but I also have high points of the wave… like a boat passing by it leaves a wake, that effects other boats, or the shore… …

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Fruits Grow on Fruit Trees.

Fruits are our works, actions, deeds. I wish that everything you see in this post, makes it clearer, rather than dirtier… the good trees grows in the dirt of fertility, and weeds grow in the dirt too… some plants make somethings grow inside of your heart, and somethings you eat will grow in your mind, …

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Music Copyright?

Beethoven’s Symphony No. 5 Inspired “Smoke On The Water”. I wonder who came up with it first, Ludwig or Ritchie… according to this world, it was Ludwig, but we can learn something else when time is revealed as an illusion. After listening to Beethoven’s Symphony #5, he came up with that riff in the Smoke …

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Fascism = a form of Corporate Slavery.

Philosophy Day A journey into understanding FASCISM. This talk by Jason Stanley, describes Fascism, as a cult of an authoritarian leader, that became as a savior of the nation, that was suffering from some economic burden/oppression. So corporatism laid the lines feeding other corporations into a network of powers, between education, media communication, propaganda machines, …

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30,000+ dead in Gaza

It’s A Maddening Experience to get Killed at a Humanitarian Aid Supply truck. Here’s Israel’s side of the story, and this propaganda war of info twisting. The Israelis and Hamas are masters of twisting the news to fit their agendas. Deceptions wars are a waste of time, and the weapons of lies run rampant with …

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It’s 11am

And I still have the urge to write and communicate from my heart. Yesterday was awash with the previous Sunday’s self immolation suicide in front of the Israeli Embassy, and then this saw this video of it, after the fact… it was disturbing, cause it glorified power, when she said “rest in power”, instead of, …

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Music or Wars

What to do? I want to do music, and cause I’m anti-Zionist, NOT an anti-Semite, cause I see Arabs as Semitic too. Though it’s a game of semantics, and name calling, and it covers history too… since History was written by the winners, I know I can’t be sure, that it was not rewritten to …

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What’s on my Mind?

Nothing! Fantasies of conversing with someone, more or less God… my creator, deceiver, and confidant, and also a motivator, truth, and revealer… illusion giver, and delusion giver too. God is a mystery to me, and God should be forever… cause once I know God, I am dead… God is everything Good and Evil, as Isaiah …

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Multi Dimensional Layers of Society

Where you don’t know what layer your on, and you’re lost. Life is made of different layers, like leaves on a tree, each individual leaf contains many layers to their individuality. What season is in bloom, and natures have different realities, different Layers. Life has so many layers, every aspect of life contains different, multidimensional …

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Determinism vs Predeterminism

Events mapped out like a map, or Events are predetermined Vacations are where you choose to go, and events are by your choice, unless you are ignorant, and everything is written in a script, and life is predetermined already. That’s Determinism and Predeterminism in a nutshell, as easy as I can sum it up. You …

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What is GOD?

  I Wonder! I‘ve been wondering about God all my life, and I’ve come to the conclusion that God, is everyone alive and dead, and righteousness is his way, cause everything the devil does is evil, and he’s the darkside of God. I came from the Catholic indoctrination, the NYC Catholicism, cause I find the …

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Netanyahu SPEAKS

BIBI is Losing His Mind. The Victory Over His Barbarism On  His Mental Health, is What He Should Seek. This is him crying victim before a group of his lobbyists, before the global supporters. I get sick while watching him, and I never got passed the first 5 minutes of the speech, but I wanted …

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I Won’t Be Programmed.

The Casino Games In Life, War and Destruction. “… The reconstruction of Gaza, And put real money into the game…” — Matthew Miller I won’t be programmed is a reference to Siteground’s or some other hacker censoring of my words, there’s an astronomical number of variable for the causes, but I had to change the …

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C’set La Vie

Joey Harkum I remember, I sang like this too. Chords and Lyrics Here It was a long time ago, I was only armed with an acoustic guitar, and became delusional seeking fame and riches, and being idolized for being a rock star… I had to have a stroke to come to my true senses. I’ve …

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MPC Live2 vs MPC Beats (Software DAW)

I received the MPC box hardware yesterday, and loaded and installed the MPC Beats software today. I received the used MPC Live2 yesterday, and I needed to reacquaint myself to the MPC Beats, I downloaded in January of 2023, but now I know more about it… it’s a sample based editing system… instead of a …

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The Butterfly Effect

Everything Will Be OK. We all have heard of the Butterfly Effect theory, where one small thing is moved in South America, it effects on the other side of the world with a larger effect in chaos theory. I was watching The Butterfly Effect movie starring Ashton Kutcher, where he played with time travel, and …

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We Wait in the Dark

Then Morning to a New Day Comes I guess the darkness passes too, and the sun shines on the new day, or a gentle rain waters the plants in your environment… I like the gentle rains without winds, like in a storm… but sometimes you have to face them without fear, and they will pass …

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Manipulations of the State

  “The Scheme 26: The Myth of the Unelected Bureaucrat” I was wondering how complicated the turning of the politics policies are. AI is involved, and backward engineering of think tanks, are making up the policies. Unelected officials are attacking the construction of our nation’s policies, too many cooks spoils the feast, comes to my …

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Words are Eaten, and Go into the Digestion Cycle

With Thoughts, We Digest the Words, into Poops Again. It’s a neverending cycle, we eat BS, and think about it, and then BS to others… it’s been going on like that, since time began. Words = Poops I guess I can theorize on that thought, until my time runs out, and I fall asleep/passageways/expire, and …

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Waste Material as a Fertilizer

Manure on the Fields of Humanity. I guess the world will be a better place, without the cynical me on it. It makes me sad and mad at least, so I guess, that I spread sadness and madness, wherever I go. George Harrison made an album “All Things Must Pass”, and the song All Things …

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Salt of the Earth, & Light of the World

Plants need Nitrogen, Phosphorus, & Potassium to grow healthily. Salt is a plant killer, in fact there are many plants that they kill… don’t drown someone in salt water… it leaves them dead… or gives them a tombstone to mark their grave on the Dead Sea, I failed the Chemistry classes in High School(Watch this …

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Damon Imani

A Satirist saying F*ck You To Klaus Schwab. I was hoping it was true, but it was satirical piece. There was no Wikipedia page about Damon Imani, so I never knew what he was about, and he’s only a satirist, doing satirical bits about current events, along the lines of SNL bits. It was funny …

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The Right of Return, No Matter What Race

Israelis or Palestinians It doesn’t matter what race you are, you want to return where your ancestors were living for centuries, even millennia, without deeds, you’re shit outta luck, pertaining to the legalities of ownership. We have Israelis and Palestinians battling over the same land, with terrorism on both sides of the conflict. I woke …

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Venting Frustrations

Yelling at God My God is as Vast as the Many Populations in the Universe. God is as real, as the air we breathe, and the oxygen we need to carry our blood from our hearts, to feed the many organs in our body to thrive healthily. So forgive me, if I don’t show the …

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