Category: depression

April FOOL’s Playlist

Play the April Fool’s Playlist Click on the above line I made this song tonight, and I liked it… it made me feel good with SUNO as the producer. Everything is regurgitated patterns and musical passages, since the beginning of music into the classical period and before that too. Music always moved you, and you’d …

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What’s New With Me

  This is what I’ve been busy with I guess this should be easier. I managed to equal the 120+ songs on SoundCloud, and with SUNO AI bands #1, #2, #3, and # 4 in writing the Lyrics, and picking the GENRES… give or take a few songs.   Here’s my latest one called “Sanity”. …

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Blessed are the Peacemakers

They Shall Be Called the Children of GOD. The Beatitudes. Depending on what you want, it bears the labels, of your human character. It gives you a stereotype to follow, an aspiration to aspire to, that you will never reach, but never say never, cause it will always be on the horizon of your lives, …

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Genocide? Israeli Madmen living on the edge?

Drag Artist from Amsterdam.He’s a Lebanese-Palestinian too, So he might come off as BIAS. This is a video I’ve seen on Youtube… and needs to be watched to reveal the truth, from someone from there… that night. I saw all the media stories, and Sky News changed their original story by pressure by the Israeli …

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Just a thought rolling down the Ski Hill of life, Getting Bigger & Bigger, as it goes down the hill.

  I’m So Impatient. I feel helpless and hopeless in despair, as if you stepped into Quicksands of life, but I still struggle to breathe, and not be buried by censorship of the Media… I know, that maybe it is not my time, to be heard… but that’s me, I’m always before my time. I …

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The Internet is 2 Way Highway, on One Way Street

You Are Enough!

The Internet & The Two Way Transmissions The scene was a dark room, and the only light was a laptop screen, and he was typing a way to reveal himself to the world, in the humblest way possible. There is this thing in the world, called the Internet, and we all see this, as a …

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Israel & Gaza

The War and the Relationship Between Them. It takes a sincere heart for the truth, minus the drama, that accompanies it. The drama is the distortion effects of the feelings of the situations, so many people with different dramas, you either relate to it, or not relate to it. Dramas feed institutions, with a cause, …

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ComPUmania

I first got into the tech field in 1984. I was a young kid at 28, when I bought my first PC computer, after I dropped out of college, and the Apple MAC was just too expensive. We were under a command based terminal prompt OS, which was MS-DOS… which carried Windows on its back …

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Pride on Ego’s Shoulder

I remember Saturday Morning Cartoons When the Angels and Devils were on your Shoulders and Talking to You With THOUGHTS. Prideful egos get blind drunk, egos get high from fame… they are drugs, that effect your egos decision making skills… they alter your ability to make sense of your life. I bought the house on …

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Goals Shmoals

In a World of Interconnectivity is a Massive Network, So you must be Sure of your Goals With global network coming into focus for all, with the UN and all of there organizations, ICJ, ICC, UNRWA, etc. … and a whole host of other connections, that will form within our lifetimes, and in the future …

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Israel is being judged by the me/god.

I give constructive advice, instead of destructive advice. It’s the occupation, that the Palestinians find objectionable, and cause terrorist attacks, from the cruelty and abuse of the IDF… they are just kids with guns, that were educated by the old timers, who developed a resentment to Arabs. I’m sick of all the hatred and cynicism …

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Alphabet/Google/Youtube is Censoring the Truth

This is What they’re Censoring Maybe the Israeli Lobby had a problem with it, and finds it to contain false info, but the Israelis had been responsible for it, and bogus intelligence feeding us to invade Iraq in 2003. We went Afghanistan first, but they feared Iraq, and they said go to invade Iraq. Power …

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7 Spirits of God.

What are the 7 Spirits of God? A waterlike Spirit taking the form of your character. Could be emotional and Sad, as well as Joyful. The spirit lives emotionally, that’s where emotions are real feelings… and that’s where you really breathe life itself. Emotional pains always crushed me, at the core of my being… and …

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I just bought the Synthesizer V Studio Pro.

Last Night, as an Impulse Buy. I was amazed at it’s properties, and now I want to record my own voice, as one of the voices in it’s singing capabilities. I feel young, all over again… it’s sad, the way the world is now for me, with all the political mayhem going on all over …

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Words are in a Pressure Cooker of Communication.

Sometimes comes up, with delicious meals. That you are thirsty for with the Truth, and you feel like you had a good meal, and some words makes for a horrible meals, and leaves you with indigestion, to boot, for the next few days. This song by Birdy of “All You Never Say”, sings about some …

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The CHOSEN… is a lot like White Supremacy.

I don’t mean to be antisemitic, but where did that name come from? I was watching the Deen Show, and Zionism was compared to White supremacy, usually orthodox Jews were against Zionism too, and he interviewed them on the streets of NYC. I always questioned the term of where antisemitism, and where it came from. …

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Steam is Bubbling in This Soul

And I need to vent it out of me, on here. I should’ve got up and eaten, but I chose to stay in bed, and vent my frustrations for satisfaction, instead of eating for energy, and healing. The times of frustration need an output of venting, what’s wrong with my life… I’ve been searching for …

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My Religion, as simply as I can Explain…

This is my Summary of it. I want to share my religion with you, and you’re trapped with other religions, that have you in their clutches, first off you don’t have to go to church… the temple, is in you. Your body is where you worship God, in thoughts and emotions… read Matthew 6:6. “God …

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Silence, isn’t the Way to Peace, it’s the result of Peace.

We need to think of this and digest that thought. I just heard Senator Bernie Sanders in this video, and I hear God too, but God doesn’t tell me to kill anyone, much less the Palestinians. I guess the truth takes time to become known, like it’s always darkest and cold before the dawn, then …

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Protester Agents?

I Wonder! We have agents, lets call them crisis actors, that feed on our emotions, to blow it up, to more than it is. We’ve had them all my life, when I look back throughout all my history. I needed to see through the memory prism, with afterthought, to see it clearly. You have the …

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Inflation, is Here To Stay.

Anybody Have a Room to Stay for Inflation. The things don’t look good for the banks, and how the Fed manages money is even more shaky… I see the US in debt, which can change at an instant, so what we’re not expecting, can manage to engulf us in bankruptcy galore with everyone, consumers, banking, …

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The meaning of Terminologies is all you need to Understand.

Not as an Expert, But in the grading of a Student Of Life Itself Terminology “A system of words used to name things, in a particular discipline”   Terminologies are a major factor in understanding of everything in life, and whether it’s darkness and shadows you’re trying to understand, or its full sunlight that you’re …

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Musical Rut.

Dueling With The Tech Dark Side. The DAWs, MPC, Roland, ZenBeats, etc., I don’t know where to begin, but I have thoughts when I log into Siteground, and start blogging… But I’d much rather work on Music, but when I do, it must be the connection to the internet, cause all the secure programs want …

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I Need to VENT.

UPDATE : Correction… it seems that 16 boxes, were 16 bandages, at $134.15 in a case, so that was an error, the way they worded it, that caused my dilemma. They word it, so you think your getting a deal, but you’re NOT… but I was ripped off on the colostomy bags, $657.48 for 12 …

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My God, is Everyone’s God.

My God, is the God of Abraham, which makes it, the God inside all of US. This is my sermon for today, about the almighty God… and my deductions in trying to find God, and God once breathed into us, and we became a living soul… so, we are souls, God didn’t give us souls, …

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Boggles, Boggles, & More Boggles

The definition of Boggle “To do anything awkwardly, or unskillfully.” Is one definition at Wordnik, but there are many more definitions. I woke this morning, and felt boggled in my mind, like I was swimming in a cesspool, and not a relaxing pool with fresh water. It was then, I went to my email, and …

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Coerced Journalism vs Free Press.

I Sat Through Hours of Highlights On CSPAN Hearings That Deal With Free Press or Fee Press Doing the Blog writing, I’ve been searching the truth in mainstream media, and finding nothing but propaganda, and manipulating the minds of the people. I’m all for the truth, but the propaganda is my enemy… it’s a deceptive …

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Cyber-warfare- A New Battlefield

Well, not so new, but more hackers make up the armed forces. UPDATE – Shodan now has one time fee for joining, and a host of monthly fee plans… I was shocked, when I returned there… it had a paywall. It was normal first, but then the paywall came up, and I found a one …

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Echelon Signal Intelligence Program.

Studying the World? Or subduing it? An all out war on attacking our intelligences, making us dumber, than we already are. I found out about this in a book called “Behold a Pale Horse”, by Bill Cooper, and many other conspiracies of the secret govt… cause I can’t get the book right now… I’m on …

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Israel Kills Foreign Aid Workers.

7 Aid workers were killed, in 3 separate IDF air strikes. I guess they struck them in one vehicle, and they went to another vehicle, then another air strike, which made them move to another vehicle where they all died, with the last air strike. It left a hole in the roof, where the World …

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Israel is a Madman.

Creating More Ruins, And what Lies under the Ruins, Still NEEDS to be Determined. I saw this after I posted on FB this song by Mother Mother – It’s Alright, and it was a disappointment for me, and the backing of the Israelis, and their destruction of Gaza, and our complicitness in it. Now they …

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Cody Jinks – I Cast No Stones.

I Am Not Your Judge. It’s like I wrote this song… cause it’s the way I feel too. There is always someone on their soapbox yelling for a cause, which I do sometimes too. It’s usually when I’m forced to, by some ethical questioning, and I have to have an answer for it. I can …

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Akai Pro Studio mk2, is giving me headaches.

I need to Vent from The Anger and Judgment, That I feel From My Myself or Akai. Shoddiness is a new word I learned from watching the tutorial videos, and I’ve seen the shoddiness up close and in my face from Akai Pro… Akai is a big company, and it has many other companies it …

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MPC Studio makes you feel stupid,

And I’m already stupid, & I don’t need to be reminded of it. I got this yesterday, and it seems to be loaded with downloads, and it always says no MPC is plugged in, but I have the MPC plugged in, and I need to plug it in so the firmware could be updated, but …

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It seems like last week was 32,000+ dead in Gaza.

The Deaths, make Orphans, without Parents to guide them. A Rafah invasion will only cause more deaths, and you’re no closer to victory, than the moment you thought about it… you went away from the battlefield of thought and contemplation, to seek victory in what you see outside of yourself. And more children will die …

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1,977 Acres of the Illegal Settler’s Land,

Is Now the State of Israel Land. I guess it being illegal by international law, since you’re chosen by God, it doesn’t apply to you… or the other zionists in that Ego trap. I guess we should be thankful for God, for having mercy on your distorted Judaism, that you hijacked with zionist dreams and …

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World Party – Is it Like Today

RIP – Karl Wallinger March 10th, 2024 The Frontman for World Party – (Karl Wallinger) may rest in peace. I first saw him on Youtube, and sometime after the World Party was sort of famous, so I’m guessing it was 2014-16, but my guesses is always wrong. I was just getting into them… Ship of …

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Pink Floyd – Another Brick in the Wall.

This was a good song in 1979 when it came out. But over the last 45 years, it has taken on a new meaning in my life… it’s part of the break up of Pink Floyd, and they went their separate ways, being sprayed with Graffiti into colorful little Bricks… but they are bricks of …

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H.P. Lovecraft – At the Mountains of Madness

An Audiobook from H.P. Lovecraft By H.P. Lovecraft is a horror story, or thriller movie, still have work to do on it. I looked for an audiobook that was one long one video, instead of a lot of separate chapters videos, I have problem playing separate chapters, they stop on youtube. I need to change …

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