Category: depression

Boggles, Boggles, & More Boggles

The definition of Boggle “To do anything awkwardly, or unskillfully.” Is one definition at Wordnik, but there are many more definitions. I woke this morning, and felt boggled in my mind, like I was swimming in a cesspool, and not a relaxing pool with fresh water. It was then, I went to my email, and …

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Coerced Journalism vs Free Press.

I Sat Through Hours of Highlights On CSPAN Hearings That Deal With Free Press or Fee Press Doing the Blog writing, I’ve been searching the truth in mainstream media, and finding nothing but propaganda, and manipulating the minds of the people. I’m all for the truth, but the propaganda is my enemy… it’s a deceptive …

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Cyber-warfare- A New Battlefield

Well, not so new, but more hackers make up the armed forces. UPDATE – Shodan now has one time fee for joining, and a host of monthly fee plans… I was shocked, when I returned there… it had a paywall. It was normal first, but then the paywall came up, and I found a one …

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Echelon Signal Intelligence Program.

Studying the World? Or subduing it? An all out war on attacking our intelligences, making us dumber, than we already are. I found out about this in a book called “Behold a Pale Horse”, by Bill Cooper, and many other conspiracies of the secret govt… cause I can’t get the book right now… I’m on …

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Israel Kills Foreign Aid Workers.

7 Aid workers were killed, in 3 separate IDF air strikes. I guess they struck them in one vehicle, and they went to another vehicle, then another air strike, which made them move to another vehicle where they all died, with the last air strike. It left a hole in the roof, where the World …

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Israel is a Madman.

Creating More Ruins, And what Lies under the Ruins, Still NEEDS to be Determined. I saw this after I posted on FB this song by Mother Mother – It’s Alright, and it was a disappointment for me, and the backing of the Israelis, and their destruction of Gaza, and our complicitness in it. Now they …

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Cody Jinks – I Cast No Stones.

I Am Not Your Judge. It’s like I wrote this song… cause it’s the way I feel too. There is always someone on their soapbox yelling for a cause, which I do sometimes too. It’s usually when I’m forced to, by some ethical questioning, and I have to have an answer for it. I can …

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Akai Pro Studio mk2, is giving me headaches.

I need to Vent from The Anger and Judgment, That I feel From My Myself or Akai. Shoddiness is a new word I learned from watching the tutorial videos, and I’ve seen the shoddiness up close and in my face from Akai Pro… Akai is a big company, and it has many other companies it …

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MPC Studio makes you feel stupid,

And I’m already stupid, & I don’t need to be reminded of it. I got this yesterday, and it seems to be loaded with downloads, and it always says no MPC is plugged in, but I have the MPC plugged in, and I need to plug it in so the firmware could be updated, but …

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It seems like last week was 32,000+ dead in Gaza.

The Deaths, make Orphans, without Parents to guide them. A Rafah invasion will only cause more deaths, and you’re no closer to victory, than the moment you thought about it… you went away from the battlefield of thought and contemplation, to seek victory in what you see outside of yourself. And more children will die …

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1,977 Acres of the Illegal Settler’s Land,

Is Now the State of Israel Land. I guess it being illegal by international law, since you’re chosen by God, it doesn’t apply to you… or the other zionists in that Ego trap. I guess we should be thankful for God, for having mercy on your distorted Judaism, that you hijacked with zionist dreams and …

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World Party – Is it Like Today

RIP – Karl Wallinger March 10th, 2024 The Frontman for World Party – (Karl Wallinger) may rest in peace. I first saw him on Youtube, and sometime after the World Party was sort of famous, so I’m guessing it was 2014-16, but my guesses is always wrong. I was just getting into them… Ship of …

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Pink Floyd – Another Brick in the Wall.

This was a good song in 1979 when it came out. But over the last 45 years, it has taken on a new meaning in my life… it’s part of the break up of Pink Floyd, and they went their separate ways, being sprayed with Graffiti into colorful little Bricks… but they are bricks of …

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H.P. Lovecraft – At the Mountains of Madness

An Audiobook from H.P. Lovecraft By H.P. Lovecraft is a horror story, or thriller movie, still have work to do on it. I looked for an audiobook that was one long one video, instead of a lot of separate chapters videos, I have problem playing separate chapters, they stop on youtube. I need to change …

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Fascia vs Fascism.

The body uses Fascia to hold your body together, Much like Fascism holds the societal body together. I‘m deep, and I’m depressed, but that’s my low point of the wave, but I also have high points of the wave… like a boat passing by it leaves a wake, that effects other boats, or the shore… …

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Fruits Grow on Fruit Trees.

Fruits are our works, actions, deeds. I wish that everything you see in this post, makes it clearer, rather than dirtier… the good trees grows in the dirt of fertility, and weeds grow in the dirt too… some plants make somethings grow inside of your heart, and somethings you eat will grow in your mind, …

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Fascism = a form of Corporate Slavery.

Philosophy Day A journey into understanding FASCISM. This talk by Jason Stanley, describes Fascism, as a cult of an authoritarian leader, that became as a savior of the nation, that was suffering from some economic burden/oppression. So corporatism laid the lines feeding other corporations into a network of powers, between education, media communication, propaganda machines, …

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30,000+ dead in Gaza

It’s A Maddening Experience to get Killed at a Humanitarian Aid Supply truck. Here’s Israel’s side of the story, and this propaganda war of info twisting. The Israelis and Hamas are masters of twisting the news to fit their agendas. Deceptions wars are a waste of time, and the weapons of lies run rampant with …

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It’s 11am

And I still have the urge to write and communicate from my heart. Yesterday was awash with the previous Sunday’s self immolation suicide in front of the Israeli Embassy, and then this saw this video of it, after the fact… it was disturbing, cause it glorified power, when she said “rest in power”, instead of, …

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What’s on my Mind?

Nothing! Fantasies of conversing with someone, more or less God… my creator, deceiver, and confidant, and also a motivator, truth, and revealer… illusion giver, and delusion giver too. God is a mystery to me, and God should be forever… cause once I know God, I am dead… God is everything Good and Evil, as Isaiah …

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Multi Dimensional Layers of Society

Where you don’t know what layer your on, and you’re lost. Life is made of different layers, like leaves on a tree, each individual leaf contains many layers to their individuality. What season is in bloom, and natures have different realities, different Layers. Life has so many layers, every aspect of life contains different, multidimensional …

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Determinism vs Predeterminism

Events mapped out like a map, or Events are predetermined Vacations are where you choose to go, and events are by your choice, unless you are ignorant, and everything is written in a script, and life is predetermined already. That’s Determinism and Predeterminism in a nutshell, as easy as I can sum it up. You …

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What is GOD?

  I Wonder! I‘ve been wondering about God all my life, and I’ve come to the conclusion that God, is everyone alive and dead, and righteousness is his way, cause everything the devil does is evil, and he’s the darkside of God. I came from the Catholic indoctrination, the NYC Catholicism, cause I find the …

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HYPE Deceives

Marketing Hype Deceives, at it’s whims. I was deceived by my own assumptions of Studio One 6, that Audio files dragged out passed the limit of the audio files, was looping, but I had to make a MIDI pattern first to loop it. There maybe another way to convert it to an audio looping file, …

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Somebody Like Me

This song is singing about me. Chase McDaniel – Somebody Like Me I‘m feeling sorry for myself, in my narcissistic ways, and I’m tired, and I haven’t got more than 2 hours sleep, before I had to get up, and sign for the used MPC Live2 package from Fedex. I got it, but I don’t …

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The Butterfly Effect

Everything Will Be OK. We all have heard of the Butterfly Effect theory, where one small thing is moved in South America, it effects on the other side of the world with a larger effect in chaos theory. I was watching The Butterfly Effect movie starring Ashton Kutcher, where he played with time travel, and …

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Words are Eaten, and Go into the Digestion Cycle

With Thoughts, We Digest the Words, into Poops Again. It’s a neverending cycle, we eat BS, and think about it, and then BS to others… it’s been going on like that, since time began. Words = Poops I guess I can theorize on that thought, until my time runs out, and I fall asleep/passageways/expire, and …

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Creative Sparks?

  To Start a Creative Fire in your Heart. When you’re lost in the forest of thoughts, and Wondering takes control, and becomes a tyrant taking away your freedoms… but you seek truth and freedom, and rebel against control from the tyrant “Wondering”, and now you feel free. Free to clear your thoughts from being …

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Salt of the Earth, & Light of the World

Plants need Nitrogen, Phosphorus, & Potassium to grow healthily. Salt is a plant killer, in fact there are many plants that they kill… don’t drown someone in salt water… it leaves them dead… or gives them a tombstone to mark their grave on the Dead Sea, I failed the Chemistry classes in High School(Watch this …

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Damon Imani

A Satirist saying F*ck You To Klaus Schwab. I was hoping it was true, but it was satirical piece. There was no Wikipedia page about Damon Imani, so I never knew what he was about, and he’s only a satirist, doing satirical bits about current events, along the lines of SNL bits. It was funny …

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Venting Frustrations

Yelling at God My God is as Vast as the Many Populations in the Universe. God is as real, as the air we breathe, and the oxygen we need to carry our blood from our hearts, to feed the many organs in our body to thrive healthily. So forgive me, if I don’t show the …

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Reminiscing on Depressing Memories?

  Memories, What to Think About?   11/11/2021 The thoughts of reminiscing of good memories, is a pleasure, but thinking about failures or bad memories is depressing. It’s better to take a couple of shots of whiskey, at least there is a physical cause, to the way you feel. Cause you will feel the same …

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Punk Rockers Are Like Boiling Pots of Melodies

  It was Always Alternative Rock to me. I couldn’t sing either, but I had a lot of messages that I wanted to get out into the world… Though with PUNK Rock too… I couldn’t stand their screaming, though their lyrics were deep, when I read them, and it was from their hearts, cause they …

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Looking Back is the Road to Repentance

  The Pasts of our Lives is where Repentance Alley lives. We regret making certain choices, and we need to look back, to map out our mistakes to make successful choices in the future… but be aware of your ego, which is our connection to God, the divine, and all the evil lives there too. …

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Sex and Generators for Charging Your Beings

Sexual charging for your Inner beings, your Inner core. Generators work by producing electricity with strong magnets/attractions revolving revolving around a coil of pure copper, and that raises an electric current. How fast is raising the Amperage, the flow of of the current from rapids, or slowly with a low amperage. Hot sex is a …

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AI – the Freedom Thief, or The Liberator of All People

AI is the downfall of our society Senator Frank Church testifying of the secret programs of the CIA called Operation Mockingbird, and foreign governments in cahoots with each other, in the 1970’s, before and beyond the 70s. MK Ultra was a mind control program using drugs and esp to control minds, and now AI is …

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Conspiracy Talk

AI is a Hungry Monster, Like a Vicious Beast We design our world, with the words/thoughts, we use in our minds, and want to turn over that job to the AI beast, or lover… you choose the term. At first it seemed innocent and entertaining, cause it filled our needs, but then greed entered the …

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Central Bank Digital Currency(CBDC)

  The New US $(Dollar), It’s Digital and Programmable, and it’s under the Control of the US Govt I wonder how it transitions from cash, to digitally buying materials, and what is bought, and it can be programmed towards to not buying things, frozen in the progression of a retail transaction. The CBDC is the …

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David Lynch

A Mediator Between Society and Chill Pills(Mantras) Transcendental Meditation with David Lynch, it’s a dangerous mixture with life and solutions, this is the result on one man. It’s like someone took pictures of my life. He needs TM(Transcendental Meditation), and to make sense of his life, so he’s not so stressed out about his life. …

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Propagandists Wanted

Propaganda For Sale Wants Buyers What is Propaganda? This might be perceived as propaganda, we have to start a war, and we need to make up lies about it to raise the emotional discord in the individuals, thus moving from one square on the board, to next square on the board… like chess pieces. This …

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