Category: confessions

Musical Rut.

Dueling With The Tech Dark Side. The DAWs, MPC, Roland, ZenBeats, etc., I don’t know where to begin, but I have thoughts when I log into Siteground, and start blogging… But I’d much rather work on Music, but when I do, it must be the connection to the internet, cause all the secure programs want …

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I Need to VENT.

Unionize, or Not Unionize? I‘ve been ripped off, either not by my own hand, and either by porch pirates, or sloppy records by a incompetent medical supplier, or unionized, or not unionized delivery people. 12 X $56.22 = $674.64  = Precut Colostomy Bags 1 X $134.15 = PolyMem Max Silver Non-Adhesive Dressings (total of 80, …

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My God, is Everyone’s God.

My God, is the God of Abraham, which makes it, the God inside all of US. This is my sermon for today, about the almighty God… and my deductions in trying to find God, and God once breathed into us, and we became a living soul… so, we are souls, God didn’t give us souls, …

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Boggles, Boggles, & More Boggles

The definition of Boggle “To do anything awkwardly, or unskillfully.” Is one definition at Wordnik, but there are many more definitions. I woke this morning, and felt boggled in my mind, like I was swimming in a cesspool, and not a relaxing pool with fresh water. It was then, I went to my email, and …

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Coerced Journalism vs Free Press.

I Sat Through Hours of Highlights On CSPAN Hearings That Deal With Free Press or Fee Press Doing the Blog writing, I’ve been searching the truth in mainstream media, and finding nothing but propaganda, and manipulating the minds of the people. I’m all for the truth, but the propaganda is my enemy… it’s a deceptive …

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Cyber-warfare- A New Battlefield

Well, not so new, but more hackers make up the armed forces. UPDATE – Shodan now has one time fee for joining, and a host of monthly fee plans… I was shocked, when I returned there… it had a paywall. It was normal first, but then the paywall came up, and I found a one …

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Echelon Signal Intelligence Program.

Studying the World? Or subduing it? An all out war on attacking our intelligences, making us dumber, than we already are. I found out about this in a book called “Behold a Pale Horse”, by Bill Cooper, and many other conspiracies of the secret govt… cause I can’t get the book right now… I’m on …

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PCs & Me.

The New Birth of Me & PCs Collide. I was extremely depressed before my breaking my back, bordering on suicidal, where I tried to OD on PCP, and woke up blind, and told my Colonel commanding officer to “Fuck Off” through a closed door, cause he was knocking on my door to inspect my dorm …

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Israel Kills Foreign Aid Workers.

7 Aid workers were killed, in 3 separate IDF air strikes. I guess they struck them in one vehicle, and they went to another vehicle, then another air strike, which made them move to another vehicle where they all died, with the last air strike. It left a hole in the roof, where the World …

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Israel is a Madman.

Creating More Ruins, And what Lies under the Ruins, Still NEEDS to be Determined. I saw this after I posted on FB this song by Mother Mother – It’s Alright, and it was a disappointment for me, and the backing of the Israelis, and their destruction of Gaza, and our complicitness in it. Now they …

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Cody Jinks – I Cast No Stones.

I Am Not Your Judge. It’s like I wrote this song… cause it’s the way I feel too. There is always someone on their soapbox yelling for a cause, which I do sometimes too. It’s usually when I’m forced to, by some ethical questioning, and I have to have an answer for it. I can …

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MPC Stems

I’ll try to make stems of my old songs, And see if I can improve on them. I made copies of them in the WAV format, and the separate them into four groups… Drums, Bass, Melody, and Vocals. I started it last night, but wasn’t sure how to do it, and then I had to …

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Akai Pro Studio mk2, is giving me headaches.

I need to Vent from The Anger and Judgment, That I feel From My Myself or Akai. Shoddiness is a new word I learned from watching the tutorial videos, and I’ve seen the shoddiness up close and in my face from Akai Pro… Akai is a big company, and it has many other companies it …

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Scriptures Quotes as Making a Political Point, Is a NO NO.

Singapore says SO, as a Mouse that Roared. As Singapore is its own island country/nation/city/state, a small island country/city with close to 6 million people, and they speak mostly English, as their main language. And they were upset, on the social media’s post of an Israeli embassy’s post, using the reference from the Quran, which …

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It seems like last week was 32,000+ dead in Gaza.

The Deaths, make Orphans, without Parents to guide them. A Rafah invasion will only cause more deaths, and you’re no closer to victory, than the moment you thought about it… you went away from the battlefield of thought and contemplation, to seek victory in what you see outside of yourself. And more children will die …

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1,977 Acres of the Illegal Settler’s Land,

Is Now the State of Israel Land. I guess it being illegal by international law, since you’re chosen by God, it doesn’t apply to you… or the other zionists in that Ego trap. I guess we should be thankful for God, for having mercy on your distorted Judaism, that you hijacked with zionist dreams and …

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World Party – Is it Like Today

RIP – Karl Wallinger March 10th, 2024 The Frontman for World Party – (Karl Wallinger) may rest in peace. I first saw him on Youtube, and sometime after the World Party was sort of famous, so I’m guessing it was 2014-16, but my guesses is always wrong. I was just getting into them… Ship of …

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Pink Floyd – Another Brick in the Wall.

This was a good song in 1979 when it came out. But over the last 45 years, it has taken on a new meaning in my life… it’s part of the break up of Pink Floyd, and they went their separate ways, being sprayed with Graffiti into colorful little Bricks… but they are bricks of …

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Fascia vs Fascism.

The body uses Fascia to hold your body together, Much like Fascism holds the societal body together. I‘m deep, and I’m depressed, but that’s my low point of the wave, but I also have high points of the wave… like a boat passing by it leaves a wake, that effects other boats, or the shore… …

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Slow Down

I wish I didn’t See the Stems Videos of the MPC devices It hasn’t been developed yet, as a working feature until this month sometime… I was looking for it, and exporting the separations Drums, Bass, Melodic, and Vocals… so it should be on the new devices… I can explode the tracks into stems, so …

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Fruits Grow on Fruit Trees.

Fruits are our works, actions, deeds. I wish that everything you see in this post, makes it clearer, rather than dirtier… the good trees grows in the dirt of fertility, and weeds grow in the dirt too… some plants make somethings grow inside of your heart, and somethings you eat will grow in your mind, …

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Music Copyright?

Beethoven’s Symphony No. 5 Inspired “Smoke On The Water”. I wonder who came up with it first, Ludwig or Ritchie… according to this world, it was Ludwig, but we can learn something else when time is revealed as an illusion. After listening to Beethoven’s Symphony #5, he came up with that riff in the Smoke …

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Fascism = a form of Corporate Slavery.

Philosophy Day A journey into understanding FASCISM. This talk by Jason Stanley, describes Fascism, as a cult of an authoritarian leader, that became as a savior of the nation, that was suffering from some economic burden/oppression. So corporatism laid the lines feeding other corporations into a network of powers, between education, media communication, propaganda machines, …

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It’s 11am

And I still have the urge to write and communicate from my heart. Yesterday was awash with the previous Sunday’s self immolation suicide in front of the Israeli Embassy, and then this saw this video of it, after the fact… it was disturbing, cause it glorified power, when she said “rest in power”, instead of, …

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Music or Wars

What to do? I want to do music, and cause I’m anti-Zionist, NOT an anti-Semite, cause I see Arabs as Semitic too. Though it’s a game of semantics, and name calling, and it covers history too… since History was written by the winners, I know I can’t be sure, that it was not rewritten to …

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What’s on my Mind?

Nothing! Fantasies of conversing with someone, more or less God… my creator, deceiver, and confidant, and also a motivator, truth, and revealer… illusion giver, and delusion giver too. God is a mystery to me, and God should be forever… cause once I know God, I am dead… God is everything Good and Evil, as Isaiah …

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Multi Dimensional Layers of Society

Where you don’t know what layer your on, and you’re lost. Life is made of different layers, like leaves on a tree, each individual leaf contains many layers to their individuality. What season is in bloom, and natures have different realities, different Layers. Life has so many layers, every aspect of life contains different, multidimensional …

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Determinism vs Predeterminism

Events mapped out like a map, or Events are predetermined Vacations are where you choose to go, and events are by your choice, unless you are ignorant, and everything is written in a script, and life is predetermined already. That’s Determinism and Predeterminism in a nutshell, as easy as I can sum it up. You …

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Vegas went downhill

I went back to Vegas Pro 21 DAW & Video Editing program And it was a disappointment. I left it in the Vegas15 version, I don’t know the last version I used it was 12 or 15… it means I have to get the other laptop… and this bed’s full already… I think it was …

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What is GOD?

  I Wonder! I‘ve been wondering about God all my life, and I’ve come to the conclusion that God, is everyone alive and dead, and righteousness is his way, cause everything the devil does is evil, and he’s the darkside of God. I came from the Catholic indoctrination, the NYC Catholicism, cause I find the …

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Netanyahu SPEAKS

BIBI is Losing His Mind. The Victory Over His Barbarism On  His Mental Health, is What He Should Seek. This is him crying victim before a group of his lobbyists, before the global supporters. I get sick while watching him, and I never got passed the first 5 minutes of the speech, but I wanted …

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Tit 4 Tat WARS

  Wars Need to STOP! Egos rule our minds and actions in the world, and it is the avenue, towards our feelings and pain, sometimes excruciating pain, making you react with vengeful feelings… like a reflexive reaction. Tit for Tat, and a punch for punch… it never solved anything in your mind or heart… it …

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Studio One 6… is a dud, at least for me, and my workflow.

It’s not very intuitive, and I’m lost in figuring it out. There are times I’m swimming in circles, they don’t have an obvious export button to export the masters or the export with all the filters and metadata, other DAWs like Reaper, Vegas, and Acid do… they have their flaws too, but they are the …

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HYPE Deceives

Marketing Hype Deceives, at it’s whims. I was deceived by my own assumptions of Studio One 6, that Audio files dragged out passed the limit of the audio files, was looping, but I had to make a MIDI pattern first to loop it. There maybe another way to convert it to an audio looping file, …

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I Won’t Be Programmed.

The Casino Games In Life, War and Destruction. “… The reconstruction of Gaza, And put real money into the game…” — Matthew Miller I won’t be programmed is a reference to Siteground’s or some other hacker censoring of my words, there’s an astronomical number of variable for the causes, but I had to change the …

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Technical Nightmares

  I guess, I’m an Idiot. It seems the tech industry is a self ordained god, judging others for not connecting to their minds, and scribbling instructions on how to use their software, hardware, and all the third party developers that use their software. I’ve had a nightmare with downloading the extensions with Studio One …

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C’set La Vie

Joey Harkum I remember, I sang like this too. Chords and Lyrics Here It was a long time ago, I was only armed with an acoustic guitar, and became delusional seeking fame and riches, and being idolized for being a rock star… I had to have a stroke to come to my true senses. I’ve …

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MPC Live2 vs MPC Beats (Software DAW)

I received the MPC box hardware yesterday, and loaded and installed the MPC Beats software today. I received the used MPC Live2 yesterday, and I needed to reacquaint myself to the MPC Beats, I downloaded in January of 2023, but now I know more about it… it’s a sample based editing system… instead of a …

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Somebody Like Me

This song is singing about me. Chase McDaniel – Somebody Like Me I‘m feeling sorry for myself, in my narcissistic ways, and I’m tired, and I haven’t got more than 2 hours sleep, before I had to get up, and sign for the used MPC Live2 package from Fedex. I got it, but I don’t …

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Studio One 6

Day 2 I downloaded and installed Studio One 6. Making your own Click Track And I saw this in making my own click track, with certain sounds of drums… it gives it feeling, instead of the bland counting of measures. It’s what I always wanted with a DAW, and I’m sure other DAWs have that …

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