What is GOD?


I Wonder!

I‘ve been wondering about God all my life, and I’ve come to the conclusion that God, is everyone alive and dead, and righteousness is his way, cause everything the devil does is evil, and he’s the darkside of God.

I came from the Catholic indoctrination, the NYC Catholicism, cause I find the Christian faiths have very diverse traditions among that Religions around the world. Every Christian religion is different from the reforms of the dark ages.

God to me, is a combination of evil and good, and God’s still working it out within God, like us Humans, God’s children/creations.

I don’t want to start another religion, or give birth to another ideology, that will destroy the souls that are alive today, but I want to shine Jesus’ Christ’s light on the subject of God, and the misrepresentations by religions, cause God is the whole universe to me, meaning all the unexplained problems that fill the night sky with the stars of our Milky Way Galaxy, and all the other galaxies, which we haven’t came up with a number of them yet, or even an approximation of a number.

I used to be marveled at the night sky, but when I saw strange things in those night skies, and the disappearing of times… where .5-1 hour disappears, and you wake up while being awake, cause you didn’t go to bed…after seeing a Foo Fighter like a bouncing glowing orb/ball coming down the field, then I was going up the road to my house behind rural Prattsville, NY devastated by Hurricane Irene in 2011 , next door(about a 100 yards) to the Hideaway Hotel and restaurant it closed in 2012.

The motto of the Hideaway Hotel Restaurant translated
“A life without joy, is like a long journey without an inn.”

Life is a marvel of creation, as it should be… and we should thankful for it… but we argue to no end about it, making it a hell on Earth.

I took a brief break in wonderment from my life, thumbing virtually through my memories, like index cards in a library searching for a book that you want, instead of the modern search engines that bring up info in seconds… old school searches required index cards.

Now to get back to God.

We wonder about God, and it leads to common beliefs about God, under the religious cloaks/clothing… cause that is all there is, we dress in our beliefs, to hide our nakedness, like Adam and Eve did in the Garden of Eden.

Which was a story to/for me, in fact it is a story for everyone alive of our past, of our creation by the elite in power back then… the religious leaders, and they argued over God, and made up poly gods to suit there agendas, it must be some other God we could blame, so they made up a god to suit the problems.

And that was a road, that you didn’t want to go down, I was raised in a strict Catholic religion, with Catholic elementary school education, and it didn’t suit me, so I delved into Atheism, or danced on the tightrope between heartfelt religion and atheism, but never committing to either one.

Then one night on a PCP high in the USAF, I was trying to speak with my mind somewhere out in space, to someone who knows my predicament, and in my mind was Jesus dressed in a yellow robe, and said I’m all that is out here for you… I was on PCP at the time… so I went into a long conversation of why I couldn’t believe in him, anymore.

And I asked for a sign, and that’s when the conversation went to silence… I asked for to be crippled, and he would tell me to walk again, and I would… cause I saw The Other Side of the Mountain that night, and it was in  ready memory(RAM).

It was all ready, and waiting to go, so I thought it was a hallucinogenic moment from the PCP… and 3 weeks went by, and my accident happened, and all that was in my mind was the heartfelt conversation with God, cause Jesus was God to me, then, but I listened to him in Spirit.

And then a year later I got a Holy Bible to read, that my Mom had in the family bookcase, so I borrowed it and read it… over and over with amazement, cause it was only a confirmation, of what the holy spirit taught me the year before… minus the negative history about wars and violence.

Jesus said “God is Spirit”, and he never told me what was spirit… it’s the way we communicate with each other, that the gist of it, it’s also a little bit general about it, but its open the doors to every evil, and every good thing about life… which made God heavier than ever.

The simpleness that Jesus wanted us to understand about God, it’s Good when you understand, and it’s Bad when you’re confused… that’s what the devil does, he tries to confuse you… but he’s one of God’s teachers, and you shouldn’t judge him, cause he can’t help it.

It’s like the mentally challenged, Netanyahu making war at the behest of the beast of war in Gaza.

I might have fabricated some memories, in this story… from my memories that I wrote in a journal at the time, but that journal evolved over time, and then the Internet and blogs, came on the worldly scene… and marketeers took it over, and saw it as a sign of profit making… so that’s the darkside of the internet, which is a microscopic part of God, but it’s like the dandruff that falls off of God… metaphorically speaking… cause God is more vast, than I can explain about God.

Now that think about it, life and death is like the dandruff that falls away from God, or becomes part of God.

I can’t decide on what God is, but maybe, that’s for the better, or you will distort it bring up another ideology to debate and argue over… well, whatever God is to you, cause God is a mystery to me… and I seek God on my own, and my heart and brain go to war in my education, and more I stress out in my search, I’m left confused, but there are moments of joy, where I understand somethings in my search… which is the good side of God.

Just try and search for God on your own, and you’ll be as lonely as me, or you’ll find your mate and be happy… the bad and good of life… the God I see and worship.

Worship – /wûr′shĭp/
  1. The reverent love and devotion accorded a deity, an idol, or a sacred object.
  2. The ceremonies, prayers, or other religious forms by which this love is expressed.
    “a chapel where worship is held daily.”
  3. Ardent admiration or love; adoration.
    “the worship of celebrities.”
The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, 5th Edition
My Body is my temple of worship, it’s not a physical external building… but it’s inside you, is where you worship God… or commune with God… it’s kind of like going into the closet to pray.
Matt 6: 5-7
“And when you pray, you shall not be like the
For they love to pray standing in the synagogues,
and on the corners of the streets,
that they may be seen by men.
Assuredly, I say to you, they have their reward.

But you, when you pray, go into your room,
and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place;
and your Father who sees in secret will reward you
And when you pray, do not use vain repetitions as the heathen do.
For they think that they will be heard for their many words.”