Nitrogen, Phosphorus, & Potassium
to grow healthily.
Salt is a plant killer, in fact there are many plants that they kill… don’t drown someone in salt water… it leaves them dead… or gives them a tombstone to mark their grave on the Dead Sea, I failed the Chemistry classes in High School(Watch this Video, It inspired this post).
Today, I went to look for the link to the plat office in Kalispell, MT, with the link to download the PDF from an official site… and it’s like a rat maze, with unfamiliar terminologies… I’ve been through enough rat mazes in my life, to go through the same things with the Internet(Information Superhighway).
I want to find some Nitrogen to feed my leaves, it’s the main nutrient I need… cause I look like a dead tree.
I’m waiting to produce fruit, that will make the world happy… what Jesus said, was so simple and wise, but what we interpret from it, makes it, so complicated
I want to shine my light, which is similar to Jesus’ light… I admire him and his works… but I lack the healing properties of his work.
I started working with plants for over a decade now, but less for the last 4 years, I’ve been on bedrest since then with a bedsore on my left cheek. That was from when it was fresh, it’s not as big now… but it’s just as deep, with several millimeters off the depth of the bedsore.
I guess I understand the soil is the most important, if you want anything to grow healthily, or deformed, I’m in the deformed class. There so many micronutrients that can be beneficial, or destructive.
And that’s not touching beneficial fungi in the soil already, or the destructive spores in fungi that litter plants already, this is a link to the bread black mold, but there are an endless study of different fungi/yeasts/molds.
The thought of gardening in many of Jesus’ parables is a sign of wisdom, and cynicism like when he got mad at money changers and icon sellers, and started losing his temper by overturning their tables, and they sold it in the temple of God… so even Jesus was not without sin.
Anger is a sin, that needs to be in control of his owner, like a vicious dog.
I see many con men/women distorting the truth, and leading away from what Jesus taught, and we needed another prophet named Muhammad to come along and set another religion to follow… they are the seed of Ishmael which is the seed of Abraham, by some maiden Mother, that Abraham had sex with, and produced a firstborn baby boy named Ishmael.
It’s a simplified version of what happened… of the 3 Abrahamic religions, Judaism, Christianity, and Islam.
I like Christianity, it’s like the fulcrum between the Jewish & Muslim religions… it seeks the truth out.
Cause God is as vast, as the universe is itself… and no one has a seat before God, cause you see God, and your dead.
“But He said, “You cannot see My face, for no man can see Me and live!”
Then the Lord said, “Behold, there is a place by Me, and you shall stand there on the rock; and it will come about, while My glory is passing by, that I will put you in the cleft of the rock, and cover you with My hand until I have passed by.“”
God must be uglier, than ugly can be, so horrible you turn to stone, and the stone is like a tombstone, when you’ve see God. |
God is my friend, somewhat of a ribbing friend, cause he’s so awful, and also beneficial, like a loving friend.
God never leaves you, God is the breath, that lives inside of you… God’s spirit is full of Angels and Demons, talking to you trying to process the situations in our lives, like a Saturday Morning cartoon you get both sides, the good and the bad.
So let’s be, the salt of the earth, and the light of the world.
I‘m not that organized religion minded, though I started in Catholic school with priests and nuns, and also Lay Teachers, included in the mix of educators of the Catholics religion. They just confused me from hardcore Catholic education, and was more real to me, cause they were just like me… well some of the lay teachers were, they included a bunch of assholes too.
It started with God, before I went to Catholic school, cause someone was talking to me in my mind… it must’ve been God’s Spirit, and then the work began with the confusions and rebellions, and blessings to sweeten it, with understandings of the confusing subjects, that wanted to drown me, but God gave me a rock to stand on, so I didn’t drown, and I kept on breathing.
Life is as dangerous, as love itself, and it can heals you, but it can curse you too.
In the Song Of Solomon 8:6 “for love is strong as death; jealousy is cruel as the grave”.
I am with God all day laying in this bed, and God talks with feelings now, so I’m not familiar with language of the God, I just know it’s not words, cause words can be misconstrued to mean other things, than what they were meant for.
Look at what religions do to the words of God, it’s what their minds can understand of what God meant… but God talks in feelings, we fill in the blanks with words.
Eventually I’ll have the feelings language down, but I’ll probably be dead by then… It’s a neverending rat maze, until our death, but maybe it goes onto another level of rat maze.
It takes a lifetime, or maybe several lifetimes to understand what’s life about, and our relationship with God, I’m glad I can unload my problems with my friendship with God, but he talks in foreign language to me now, with feelings as words, and I don’t know how to understand it…
I guess I go by faith, and see where my feelings takes me, and be wise in my old age… Talking to God is a heavy load, without pressure…. but I’m learning all the time. Wisdom is a heavy burden.
“Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom,
and also of madness and folly,
but I learned that this, too, is a chasing after the wind.”
I guess I’ll have to wait till I go to sleep in death, and be rid of this sickly bedrest, cause there is NO rest in the mind of God.