— Porn Ed vs Sex Ed —

Pornography, if seen before the knowledge of the body, I saw it from a black and white magazine. The porn was raw and disgusting, but mesmerizing at the same time, and is a child developmental mystery to me.

Porn being seen before you understood the body and it’s functions, is traumatic… at least it was for me, in my early childhood.

We didn’t have the internet in the 60’s when I was in my adolescence phase, which is a good thing.

After we found a person that got a Playboy subscription through the mail, and at that time of the month we went early or at lunch time, to that house and looked at the pictures when I was about 10 -11 years old, which was pleasant this time, cause Playboy was more glamorous in its presentation of porn. The mailman left it outside the house, in a paper covering, that was before the plastic craze that developed in the 60’s, heck I remember they delivered milk in the 60’s in the glass bottles.

The pop ups is the devil’s tool, either they are trying to sell you something or lead you down a dark road full of confusion. We had magazines in the 60’s that were always covered in the stores, but when you visit sites on the internet today, the pop up invade your mind, even if you have pop up blocker..

I kept overlooking this story, but I gave in and looked at it, it talked about the real purpose of the porn industry. To become more naked than they were before. It’s an orgy that forces themselves on you, the public, whether you want to participate or not.

When the internet started they were pushing naked women on the public, in fact the porn industry is what supplied the technical advancement investments. I guess, but I think I guess right. They might not be in the porn industry anymore, but are part of the dark scenes in the technical field, pushing privacy issues while hacking at their own will.

Anonymity is an ally.

Addiction to porn was my drug, it hit me without knowing it, I masked it with research goals in mind, but I was excited by well proportioned breasts and nipples, which set dopamine being absorbed in my brain, without me knowing it, but feeling the effects of dopamine, which is addictive.

I just kept telling myself the same old lie…the “research”…it wasn’t a lie, cause I was well aware of the research of the hacking going on in the background, the only thing it was a mystery to me. Then 9/11/2001 came along and set me into a loop, which set me spinning, and eventually came my stroke in the Fall of 2004, just before the elections, cause I watched the debates from a hospital bed.

I would’ve rathered watched this video instead of the debates.

I followed them at my disgrace, cause I knew they had a plan, while the fools watched the naked pictures, they were hacking at their will, and the people were oblivious to their hacking. They were too busy at waiting at modem speeds when the fastest modem was I think at 33.6k, when the internet was born.

Then eventually people learned of DSL, which was a noticeable improvement from modem speeds. I was just getting more and more security software, that turned into the spy software that I wanted to protect myself from, and drained the resources of the operating system.

I viewed porn from 1994 – 2004 …maybe 2005, cause after my stroke, I saw Google searched images, when it first started, and I got sucked back in with boob searches. It might have gone on till 2006…so I put at least 12 years researching porn. After awhile Google put the reins on porn searching, cause it got harder and harder to satisfy my needs. They were probably getting hacked too.

They kept bringing up the same porn sites, and they became less and less racier pictures, which is a good thing. When I first found out they were searching porn sites, I became judgmental towards Google, but they were weeding out the detrimental sites, well not all of them, but there were countless sites, some darker than dark.

I have my needs like any man, has his needs, but I see it as affections of love, rather than sex…it requires more energy not to cum and ejaculate, than to affectionately touch someone, I’m lazy.

I don’t “feel down below” because of my accident, paraplegia and all that, but I’m alive and I remember how it felt.

Porn was always the darkside of the web, I know they were hiring hackers to work for them, cause I saw many sites the popped up in the bubble dot com days. While they gave you naked pics, they had time to hack you at their contentment. I’m not talking of the low life pornographers, that were into hacking, but the Govt agencies that developed the internet in the first place.

I don’t know what was going on, it may be my paranoia conjecturing all sorts of horrors in my head right now, but I wouldn’t put it past them.

I even called the FBI computer/cyber division in 1997 to report the hacking going on, and they didn’t answer the phone, I got the message machine, so I left my phone number, and they didn’t get back to me. After that I was repulsed by all message machines.

After time I was repulsed by all forms of social networking too, because I read a book on social engineering and info wars, before all the social networks popped up. It would’ve have been the Goebbels’ wet dream.

Social networking is the way to monitor all the people at the same time, and wrap them into a small bubble, as a node to connect to another node in this menagerie of networks. It reminds me of neural networking of the brain, and artificial intelligence, that I suspect they’re building and have been building since the early 80’s, maybe even longer. I need to check my facts, or I will sound like a crazy man.

This video I found is touching on the questions that I found, but excludes my suspicions on AI.

I’ll end this without my self centered babble, egocentric babble is like the porridge we eat, and the more we eat the more we become more egocentric, narcissistic.

Wise sayings is another form of narcissism.