Somebody Like Me

This song is
singing about me.

Chase McDaniel – Somebody Like Me

I‘m feeling sorry for myself, in my narcissistic ways, and I’m tired, and I haven’t got more than 2 hours sleep, before I had to get up, and sign for the used MPC Live2 package from Fedex.

I got it, but I don’t know what to do with it, I had to wait a week and a half to get it, I’ve been learning Studio One 6 while I waited… I learned I could everything with an MPC Live2, and it’s easier  to learn with Studio One 6… and it’s intuitive, rather than menu diving.

I was started with digital audio in 1991 or 1990, all I know, it was during the turn of the new year.

I need a good nights rest, and I’ll start on learning the MPC menus… it’ll become second nature with me, if AKAI doesn’t change the MPC interface.

Well, lets talk about my narcissism, and the different levels everyone has… my narcissism can be hard to handle at times, and my friends tell me, that’s why I’m living here as a hermit in Montana.
I’m hurt by other people’s judgment of me, but I struggle on. Shaking off the dust of dandruff, of other people’s judgments, about me.

I’m returning the favors of the dust of their judgments of me, and doing them a favor by judging them in return with the truth, as I see it.

It’s my narcissistic way.
It’s at the tired level, and all I need is a good night’s sleep. With a little rest, I can have a cognitive session again.

Cognition – (noun)
1. The psychological result of perception and learning and reasoning

I need cognition to learn all this new software and hardware, instead of feeling sorry for myself, and not healing and getting worse, with each day passing.

Cognition is like a drug, that we are addicted to, otherwise we are mental vegetables, that live for only for pleasure, as our rewards…

I’ve come to the conclusion, that everything is a drug, belief systems, political views, ideology, religions, the unknown, etc. … we need our views, once they’re used, like a drug, it motivates us to use, and follow to get the supply readily available.

We are all addicts to the breath of life… in a positive shine, but the shadows accompanies the addicts… the shadow never goes away in this light.

This blog is as my journal, where I unwind publicly, for all the world to read, if they want to, and learn about me, and my narcissism, but my narcissism is very generous too.

Everyone is narcissistic. You are a liar, if you think you’re not.
Everyone is self centered, it’s your survival mode, or your “moving on” mode.

It might not be the whole absolute truth, but it shines in the woods of knowledge, so that you can see the enormity of knowledge, but beware there are monsters in them there woods/world. You can discern them, from the lambs, cause they wear the deceptive teeth of the wolves… I use the force/spirit to protect me, and don’t fear them, cause I believe in the freedom of speech/expression from the heart.

I might read this tomorrow, and say what tripe it is, but it shines on the truth of things, that we need to keep alive.

Like compassion and empathy, instead of judgment and condemnation, though they go hand in hand, towards the horizon of life.

Sometimes you get so mad, that you judge others wrongly, which makes you feel sorry for yourself… and unfairly. Which can be a dissociative feeling to the soul of you/them/ourselves.

My mind is getting dark, as the shadows, that follow me in this light… you can’t get rid of the shadows, though they have a lot to teach, if you listen to them, but they can change into monsters/demons, if you fear them.

So don’t fear them, and go with the spirit/force… life is an adventure, you have to look it as that, if you ever want to leave this floor to get to next level of life… whether it be up or down, heaven or hell, it’s the next level… this Earth is already hell, I would like to take the express elevator to heaven… but I know that we must overcome our sins to reach that level, and change the world piece by piece, instead of a quick ride to the top.

It’s a struggle ahead of this life, but we’ll change it, so that kingdom of God, we’ll know… eventually.

Luke 17:20-21
“Some of the Pharisees asked Jesus, “When will the kingdom of God come?”

Jesus answered, “God’s kingdom is coming, but not in a way that you will be able to see with your eyes.  People will not say, ‘Look, here it is!’ or, ‘There it is!’ because God’s kingdom is within you.””


I’m going to rest now…. zzzzzzZZZZZZ