— I need to rant —
I need to rant to stay sane, otherwise I’d be some crazy person roaming the streets talking and yelling to himself, this way I write something that makes sense… to me at least, if it makes sense to you too. Then you have something to worry about.
I’ve been attacked with a brute force robot from all around the world, or a network of spammers…it’s hard to decide. Robots make more sense, the attackers are various countries in South America, Middle East, Europe, Russia, and China and other Asian countries. It seems the whole world is against me, what did I do?
Maybe my views of God, but God is saying it’s true, or just agreeing with me silently. God isn’t saying no to what I’m saying about God. I went to war with the spammers in October of last year, around the time of the Sony breach.
In my anger I say a lot of stupid shit, some I choose to do, and some I feel ashamed and wish I just kept my mouth shut, but I said it, and wish I shouldn’t have said those things or thought those thing. I said those thing and thought those things, and I felt justified when I said those things and thought those things, so I’ll carry it like a cross to my death, but I wish God will forgive me for thinking that.
God is as mysterious as mysteries go, it’s a mystery, but I see God as a collective of hosts, some bad and some good, much like the world politics, but I hope is in better in control of their tongues and weapons. Since we’re made in God’s image, and they talked more than once using “our” as a reference to God.
“And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.”
It seems there are many times in the beginning of the Bible they refer to God as a collective, and throughout history the religions spread fear of God, with a new version of the many religions thus propagating the same fears and misunderstandings. I know I don’t know about God, and don’t say I do, I’m humbled by the mystery of God, but I choose not to fear God, cause I love God with all my heart and soul, God is my protection from this cruel world.
I don’t know about God, but I’m on guard against the deceptions that were warned about by the spirit of God.
Like my parents, I love God, and I wish my parent’s to know of God like me, but not like me, cause I chose the road of suffering, being a loser in this world, makes you gather riches that go unnoticed in this world, and grows into a treasure in the next world.
I’m like a little baby, that knows nothing of this world, you can tell by my cryings in this blog. I will grow up someday, and scold you for being a judge of me. No I won’t scold you, that would mean I’m better than you, but I will love you and show you that you’re are all the same. No one should be judged, only principles and powers should be judged.
You making God a mean man, was where you went wrong with the understanding of God.
God was introduced to you as a collective, and you made him a deity, reflective of one man, cause that’s all you could understand at the time. God doesn’t blame you, cause God’s in control of life and time… but you don’t understand that. God’s got time in God’s control… you just haven’t reached that time when it’s in your control.
God is whoever God is to you, God is my friend first, Father too, God is unique to me, cause God is the most mysterious of Mysteries to me. I think I understand God, and God does something new to marvel me more with mysteries, in a good way. God is love to me, God is much more than that too, cause God encapsulates all of our existence in a protective bubble called Earth. God is whoever that God introduced you to God, and no one should tell you any different.
This is the land of freedom of religion, no one should tell you what God is, your understanding of God is between you and God’s spirit.
“I also will choose their delusions, and will bring their fears upon them; because when I called, none did answer; when I spake, they did not hear: but they did evil before mine eyes, and chose that in which I delighted not.”
I’ll close with a scripture for the evil doers claiming that they speak for God, by doing despicable things, … God forgives above all.